Monday, May 11, 2009
Personal statement. yea, thats what i have to think about over this long weekend cause we need to write about ourselves. Who am i? what makes me me? what are my dreams/goals? what am i good at? what are my values in life? WOW. so many tough questions all at one go. hahaz, i was never good at making decisions, and i can proudly say that until now, i dont know what i want to be. I really dont get the point in studying accept that without it i wont have a future, cause i cant continue to further my studies. ya. basically until now, my life just revolves around studying and table tennis. quite screwed eh. this experience doesnt really differetiate me from other people, nor do i see it benefiting me since i kind of suck at table tennis. So wad, i only know that table tennis taught me not to give up even numerous failures are put before you, cause if you want to be at the top, you have to overcome these failures. even if you cant reach the top, you will be behind the top, giving up only makes you tumble right down to the ground. Also, working hard does not garuntee success, im serious, sports is something tt require talent and opportunits and the right timing. of course, hard work is the pillar tt supports the other three factors, but without the three factors, hard work is just a pillar that supports nothing. yea. and hmm i made a lot of friends tt are nice. hahaz quite comfortable to be out with, yea it changed my life, cause i hardly go out with my classmates. hahaz.
what makes me me? i dont know, my mind makes me me. i am a person who breaks rules hahaz, but in my mind i know the limits. i know when to stop breaking rules, i know when to abide the rules, i feel irritated when i see people cutting queue, i feel sad when i see an old lady selling tissue, i feel guilty when i did something wrong. i know i need to respect elders and teachers deep down, i guess tts my value. other than tt im a slacker :) hahaz why do i like to slack, i dont know i hate work, nw im just so strssed out im holding on to the few weeks left to hols. although i also cannot really relax, but at least i will get enough sleep. sometimes teachers really just think we only have their subject to study, they dont really realise how much we really need. they get irritated when we ask for extensions, but do they know we are struggling at home until 1 to 2 am... sleeping in class is due to severe lack of sleep and not because of boredom or the weather... at least, some teachers understand. thank you! you are the best ! they add hope to my screwed life. how i wish im somewhere in europe or korea or japan, that has this large green patch of field, with maple leaves falling or cherry blossoms around, and me lying down comfortably lking at the blue sky. the weather is not hot, clear but windy, its the best if i can hear the seas waves, tt would be perfect. ok im tied from writing, i still have to clear large piles of hw.... so see ya!
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