Saturday, April 25, 2009
Procrastination. Its a killer. But then again, it seems to be stuck in my nature. Gosh, shoo! come back after my tests. Shoo!
My life seems to be getting cloudy, the light at the end seems to be lost in the midst. Wheres my direction? Being flooded with trainings and studies, its really tiring. Will all these be worth it? I hope results show that all these are worth. I really do.
Time past really fast, being back at the same place where i was 1 year ago with similar things happening, it really bring memories back. Sometimes i wish times really past fast, sometimes i wish it would standstill, actually time just zoom past us, leaving no time for regrets. Cherish. Its the only thing we can do. Hold on to happy memories, let those unhappy ones be washed away with time.
Friends. What really defines best friend. Will you really be able to find someone who will sincerely care about you when you are down, share your happiness when you are happy, will not tease nor bully you, support you whatever the situations are so long as they are morally right, be with you just to listen to you when you need one, have similar values as you, cherish time spent with you? Is someone like this really possible? One who really cherish you as person, as a friend, but not for what you have, not for your popularity. Is there?
Wow, quite a long but random post. Just things that have been through my mind. i realise i think a lot. :)
迷失自己的感觉好可怕。
9:27 AM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
wow its ages since i posted hahaz. i never really thought of posting again cause basically i was lazy, and not much time. but i just have this urge to vent my feelings, so yea i thought of this, since no one ever reads this blog le, suits me fine. tdy i lost my match 3:1, wondering what i was thinking then. the feeling sux aft tt i think, although it was only felt like later, i feel like im wasting my time and sacrifices even bothering to train as much as i can. i come home from trng so tired and fall aslepp doing hw or studying almost like 3 times a week, whats the point when i seem to be losing... i really wonder what i want. why im i so uptight, its just a stupid comepetition some may think. but the point is tt i put in effort, isnt there suppose to be a phrase called no pain no gain or hard work brings success, since i had pain, why is there no gain? if i worked for it why im i not getting it. and i know im reaching the last 1 or 2 years of my tbt so called path, i wanna do the best for what i have left, its just. i dont know how to explain. but aft spending more than 5 or 6 years playing table tennis, you wont feel like giving up just like tt unless you acheived something to mark the end, well basically i did nothing. i haven even have half a acheivement. im i really so not talented, cant you just let my effort pay off once... should i continue or what... but i guess i expereinced failure so much tt its all quite numb to me, but will i still have tt urge to do well, to squeeeze out time for trng like i did ?
anyway aport from tt, i heard my bro made some serious mistakes in his exams. for hes confidential purpose, shall not elaborate. i know he tried his best and studied hard for it, hope he can get over over it and concentrate on the rest of his exams. gor gor dont give up! i know you can do it.
i once thought studying is the only thing on earth tt will get good marks so long as you put in the effort to study, well i have to reconsider tt. nw it seems, hard work only pays off for ppl with luck, with talent. people with just plain hard work, it brings you nowhere.
6:51 AM