Monday, February 26, 2007
SHIT SHIT SHIT! i feel like scolding all kinds of things nw and including hitting something. im dam freaking frustrated, and i mean really frustrated. why must it always be like this!!! why, why when im jus getting the feel i have to lose it. i need a reason for this, if not i will go crazy soon. argh, im confused, frustrated, angry and disappointed. before the cny, everything was going fine, i changed my dong zuo a bit and its improving fine, and i like the feel, now everythings all gone... i want it back, desperately. WHY! why must there be a break, argh im trying in vain to get my feel back. i cant rmb how it feels like, i think i'm doing the same thing as last time, buit it feel terribly wrong and hits terribly wrong. i cant get even 5 out of 10 balls in... DARN! i hate this. i have comp tmr, and i need the balls i hit to get onto the table.. oh man, hoping for the best. i still don't get it, why is it like tt always! argh i wan and desperately hope my feel will come back. i wanna improve, but everything is jus against me and nothing i do is helping. worst is i think the way im doing it is right, but somehow feels wrong, i also dunno. i jus cant hit the ball in, argh. someone pls guide me...
6:01 AM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
studies stress and tire one out.
tts wads i think. argh after our tests there are still so many projects and homework to be done, oh man, when will all thses finish. i need another break, real SOON. i know i know studying is for our own good etc, but its just so stressful and the workload is really a lot. not tt i don't want to study, i just need more time. maybe its my time management, but who don't enjoy rest. nvm i will try to buck up.
sianzz my skills deprove le. my dong zuo feels weird la, especially zheng shou. back to square one. jus when i think i have improved, i have to deprove. i hate this. oh well, work hard work hader work even harder! hope my hard work will bring some success. never giving up, yup!
kk tts all, still need to chiong hw, bye!
3:48 AM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Happy CNY everyone!!! hmm chu2 xi1 and chu1 yi1 was quite fun. went back to pcps on friday, but didnt stay there for long sianzzz. no choice got to go for trng. but still got to see my teachers, wheee they are still as lively as ever lol.
eve was basically eating day lol. i had reunion lunch with my father's side relative and reunion dinner with my mother's side relative. the dinner was nice, at dunno wad restaurant la. but very nice. ok then at night i stayed up until dam late, hahaz shou sui. but i was watching the guardian on my mum's laptop, hehe finally, its very nice. hmm but its still considered shou sui la hor.
then on first day i went to my grandma house in the morn. after that went to my mum's grandauntie's house. ok la i talk a lot and drink a lot of tea hahaz. one of the auntie likes to brew tea for me because i appreciate her tea lol. then at a bout 6 we left for dinner with my uncle. we ate at macs at toa payoh hdb. the prosperity meal was quite nice, hmm potato wedges are better than fries. hahaz. after that i went to the arcade with my brothers and cousin. outrun was dam fun, hahaz. ok i realise my basketball skills arent very good lol.
ok that's about it, don't wanna post so long, still got some work to do tdy. later going to my uncle's house, then at night going for dinner. hmm one reason i like chinese new year is because of the meals i get to eat lol, okok go do work liao.
6:11 PM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
hmm long time never post le, so i shall update nw. this week was basically test week. but sigh something unexpected happened, or i knew it my happen but hope so hard it won't, but it still did, nvm i will talk bout tt later.
well about the tests, i screwed up my maths, and i think my chinese isnt very well done either cause i didnt manage to finish the whole thing, one word to describe me-slow. oh man, people have like a full 15 min for checks and im scribbling till the last minute when the teacher says pens down. crap. i think i need to practice more and this requies better time management, back to square one, time. i guess i really enjoy slacking cause my week sometimes just so pack tt when i can rest, i rest all the way. but i hope i can change it in order to improve in my studies, i will try.
ok and tdy's taining was, er no comments. sianzz dam weird. dunno why also so long as its not for any bad reasons.
ok back to the point. you told me your decision, and said it was a decision tt was unanimous and you told me the reasons. it sounds logical, but our reasons are not illogical. few days ago i thought the situation wasn't tt bad, nw the truth falls on us. your one decision hurt all of us, we have our point, why cant you think in our shoes. maybe we are not thinking in your shoes, but we really want it. i really dunno, its just so complicated nw, and all of you are asking me. i know i want it a lot, but if the consequences prove me so wrong, what should i do? maybe really its just purely us thinking of ourselves, maybe not, i'm so lost now. but after so many rounds of explanation from all of you, im starting to doubt my persistance. im really confused. i really hope this can be sorted out and in our favour, but if your decision is really the correct one, i will take it, i hope it is. cause i don't really agree to it. but well i know we must consider the situation. i dunno now also...why is it so complicated?
6:51 AM
Friday, February 2, 2007
F-o-u-r-t-e-e-n-! I'm 14 le! wow time sure flies. hmm it seems like just yesterday that i was 13 and just became sec 1. now i'm mugging through sec 2 with a whole new year of challenges. well i jusy wanna thank all those who gave me their wishes or presents, a big thanks to all of you! :)) hmm wish that this is a turning point for me. wish that i can overcome my difficulties and once again regain my confidence.and yup i will continue working hard, although ya i really felt that sometimes i'm really at my breaking point, but i will work on, hard work pays off, won't it? this selection made me realise many of my mistakes. i will work on it. and drinker ah you a bit blur leh, i am glutton leh you tag as glutton lol. anyway rest well and recover faster! hmm and thx for ur dedication hahaz.
sianzz tests next week, crap must start mugging muging and mugging! nvm i can enjoy more after cny, eh not very true still got projects. argh so stress. must get more sleep so can perform better, quite hard though hahaz. yup tt's about it and hope you guys win in malaysia! :) okok back to studying le.
5:08 AM