Tuesday, September 25, 2007
1.31am. i guess everyones sleeping.
few hours aft selections, yea. still disappointed. and my eyes hurt ouch, cry too much liao.
what to say, actually nothing much just wan to fa xie a bit, if not i cry until my eyes gone.
i guess this is the best selections i have played, almost every match yea. but... i guess im jus
not fated ba. i think i didnt even try that hard in studying. ok maybe about the same.
no one to blame la, everyone played darn well, and yea i really wanted to go, but its over
, just hope i can lk forward. i hope. and i realised, if i tried my very best, the feeling of losing
is no better... its worst.. the feeling is jus all stuck inside. and its my last year, no more
chances. ok why im i taking this so hard. i dunno. haven my previous posts been so
crappish like this, i just didnt wan to experience it again. really tried. i just hope time really
heals wounds. anyway nat, jus wanna say thx, for wadever you have said, all the encouragements, yea, thx a lot.
10:31 AM
Sunday, September 9, 2007
ok tmr is the start of sch again. sianzzzzzzzz. i really don't like to go to sch. especially when my sch hols hw is like less than half done.... hey you cant blame me la. i know my time management isnt very good, but i had comp for the whole week. crap it took out dam lot of time..... and in the end i got no money!!!!! ok nvm shall not complain liao, quite happy with my performance la, 4th for under 15 and top 8 for women singles. why cant the stupid management just make it joint third... i know like that save a lot of money la, but cant they just gu3 li4 us kids a bit more. sianzzzzz nia. imagine waste 1 WHOLE WEEK, sacrificing time from sleeping and doing hw, then in the end get a trohpy only. waaaa.
anyway 3 more weeks to eoys.... just great man, i wan to do well la, but i just cant get myself down to do work for long... its just tt feeling... crap its like i got some super hyper activeness, no maybe its just anti studyness. hahaz yes tt must be it. sianzzzz nvm for the sake of ermmmm, yes no regrets. tts the word, i shall just try my very vert best to mug for the next three weeks. can i do it? at least it must be easier to win in comps right? yes yes so must do it, anyway just now aft prize presentation went to eat at swensons with tbt mates, im really broke. eating myself poor. nvm one thing gd about sch, and yes tts the one and ONLY gd thing, i get pocket money. ((: so means i can start saving for dec hols, hmm going for movie marathon then. hahz dont think liao la, the more i think of hols the more i dont wan to study. ok bye bye off to study, wait its to finish my hw first. FOUR sets of sci exam papers and THREE sets of maths. just imagine!
2:19 AM
Saturday, September 1, 2007
tdy was the start of ng eng heng comp. one word, horrendous. it can never be disappointment, i didnt even put up a good game... im quite pissed with myself, or rather very. whether or not i win, every game should be played to the best of my abilities, leaving no regrets behind. i failed terribly. not only didnt i play my best, but also lost the spirit of perseverance. That's the worse attitude during a competition, and i hate myself for tt.
tomorrow is the start of another event, i just want to find my fighting spirit back and just play out everything i have. there's really NO more room for regrets, NO more time for a next time. i just want my very best, no matter what is the result. Be it a miracle, be it being lucky, i just hope that the determination, the effort i put in, and my mentality will bring me to greater heights.
9:33 AM