Saturday, July 28, 2007
4 rounds around the stadium...
yea 4 rounds, 4 whole rounds for me to think clearly where i went wrong... but i guess i was too full of hatred to think much
i hate him. i dunno why, i was just so angered up just now. maybe my temper just sucked. yea and i pushed all the blame to him... maybe that's wrong, maybe im just not meant to play tbt. so no matter how hard i try, im still the loser. yea and i was so freaking pissed off with i guess myself yea tt i blurted out tt four letter word. sorry to those who heard it, it was so uncouth. yea no more, no matter how angry, no more!
im kind of tired, really, for trying for TWO WHOLE YEARS OR MORE in vain, trying to become better. yea tt sux i know. i dunno how tt will feel to you, its just makes you wan to smash anything in sight because someone asked you why you nv try hard enough, so tts why you are lousy. the feeling is just terrible, its like erm trying to pass an exam by studying 3 months before, sacrificing all the leisure, and in the end you didnt pass, and someone blamed you for not studying hard.
i dunno why im so bothered by it, i know i wun be like a professional when i grow up, but since i have been playing so hard, it will be a waste to give it up wun it? all will be gone if you give up. and i guess i take pleasure in tbt. yea i like it. ok dun wanna say liao. since i got it all out thx to nat and sam! thx not so confused and angry le. shall jus end here on a note of hoping tomorrow will be a better day.
5:04 AM