Tuesday, May 29, 2007
30 May 2007, which is also tomorrow, i face a challenge. im already quite nervous now, but i guess wad others told me was kind of right, i should not see it as something fearful, but a chance, a chance for me to win back what i have lost. or rather, a chance for another challenge which i lost previously. someone told me once, "we should not run away from failure, after we lose, we should think, and yearn for another challenge, and try to win it." losing is not scary, giving up is scary. haiz, but who is not afraid of losing, i not only im scared of losing, i detest and hate losing. tt's partly because i cant take it. but there will always only be one winner, everyone hopes to be tt winner, but nothing is guaranteed, the most important thing is that whether or not i have tried my best. it sounds ironic doesnt it, we can say anything now, only when we are facing the real thing, that we are rendered speechless, and hopeless. it is always then that we feel that all is gone. but i heard this from someone, we should not be ashamed of feeling nervous, because even world champions do feel nervous. and that person also said, we are playing for ourself, not others. i realised i said a lot of what others said. tt's probably because even if i said those, i dont truly believe in it. haiz now i dont want to think so much, i just want to focus on tomorrow. i know i gotta believe, i dont wanna lose, but most importantly, i dont wanna regret. so i will just try, try my very best to just focus on the game and not anything else. i wanna SOAR HIGH!
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