Friday, January 26, 2007
i feel so sucky now.... argh. my selections turn out bad, real bad. ... i really feel like giving up, jus feel so disappointed. what more can i do... i just wanna play a nice game. but to me, none were well done. i jus made so many mistakes... i tried, i changed i reflected, not tt i didnt try, not tt i'm not thinking, but i just cant. even a person who can swim need a helping hand sometimes to prevent themselves from sinking, and i need it now. these three days just didnt turnout well. my mind is like flooding with so much stuff, thinking of alot of things when im playing, argh can't i just concentrate and forget about my flaws and stop thinking about not being able toplay a gd game... my mentality sux. ... monday is the last day, and its the only day i have to pick myself up and fight till the end to make thi selections something worthwhile to learn from. i'm tired and frustrated, nope but im not giving up no way. i know im no good, not up to standard, but i will improve, i will. 成功的道路真的很艰难，很累，可我绝不半途而废，我一定要闯出一个新的天堂。
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